What Is Your Legacy? What is the meaning to life?

LOVE TIP – Saturday June 23rd, 2012

Hello dear Friends

”When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive
– to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love.’ ~ ♡Marcus Aurelius

My brother ♡Malcolm, two and a half years younger than me at 59, died at 5am this morning.

This is a brother who kept very much to himself. A very private man.
Who learned to protect by staying silent.
Who learned to stay safe by disappearing inside.
By being very selective and opening his heart to the few that he gave ‘the password’ to.

I give thanks for and honour his life, for the paths he has walked, the choices he’s made.
For the life he chose…this man who was a brother, son, cousin, husband, son-in-law, father, father-in-law, step-father, uncle, grandfather, friend, mate, work colleague, neighbour…and so much more.

I wanted to share how I am doing. I have felt your support and ♡Love.
I am grate-full for your caring and kind prayers and blessings.

Right now, these words are what’s in me…

Where did you go?
Where are you now
What’s it all about?
Why are we here
Questions with no answers
Thoughts with no response
I’m sitting here pondering,
sitting here wondering.
I just don’t get how you can be so alive
be breathing, be flesh, be soft, be warm,
then so dead, so silent, so un-alive.
So deadly still, so hard, so cold,
like a statue, so lifeless, so un-moving
Yet I wonder how can this stillness, this quietness 
roar so loud?
I can’t make meaning of it, of you being dead
I can’t make meaning of us being alive
I can’t make meaning of who is now lying in the bed
I can’t make meaning of me trying to decide

No amount of teaching and messages wake us up like personal experience.

I was sitting with ♡Malcolm late last night who was sedated and unconscious and labouring with each breath. We were told there would not be many more till it would be his last breath.

I was thinking about how recently I read of the tribe where the pregnant women go out and listen for the song of their unborn child which they go back and teach to the tribe….which is then sung at their birth, and their marriage, and all other significant times in the person’s life up till the time it is sung when they are dying…

And I was reflecting on what is ♡Malcolm’s song.

What came to me is What a Wonderful World by ♡Louis Armstrong which I sang to him over and over and will now remember him by…

I love the idea of people being sung to as they die…….

 Wake up before you get a wake-up call is ‘the lesson of the day’.


boy, son, brother 

young man



grandfather –‘Poppy’

The words below are part of a poem I wrote back in 2001 which  was 22 months after the death of my last partner ♡Russ and 7 months into my relationship with ♡Shelton.

Asking myself a thousand times     
Why did he have to die?
Why do we all have to die?
Why do good things have to end?
How can I love so deeply
without breaking my heart?
Is it possible, or is it just being human,
being delicate and fragile and tender?
I wish I had answers,
could help us to understand.
Yet all I keep coming to is to love
more deeply, more sweetly, more truly
not wasting a moment finding
more ways to offer your heart,
more ways to open your soul.
Let’s walk the tightrope of living and dying
experiencing the deep loving and losing.
Perhaps in embracing full living and loving
we’ll give new meaning to
all of our Beloveds who’ve died.


Wondering and pondering…
with LOVE from a perplexed, questioning, inquiring and ‘thrown’ Susie who is also feeling peace-full ♥

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My aim with Susies♥HeartpathBlog is to connect and relate to you from my heart, mind and soul while sharing information and resources about conscious relationships, communication and ♡LOVE and FULL exuberant ALIVENESS…. My intention is to provide a space where you can engage with me and with the community of those who are ‘walking’ the ♥HEART PATH of conscious relationships….. people who daily make choices and actions about becoming and being more ♡LOVE-ing…….people who care that their partners and families and friends and the wider community feel ♡LOVE-d and lovable… people who are curious about and respect and validate the reality of ‘the other’ and who choose to create and live in a Zero Negativity Zone [ZNZ zone].... I am committed to teaching and sharing practical user-friendly communication ★TOOLS and Skills and processes that lead to growth and deep healing, connection, ♡LOVE and intimacy. I am a keen net-worker and committed to connecting people to the abundance of resources that are available. I believe much of what we need is out there, yet people don’t often know the resources are there or if they do where to find them. Putting people in touch with opportunities and possibilities is a high priority for me….
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17 Responses to What Is Your Legacy? What is the meaning to life?

  1. Cathy says:

    Dearest Susie Shelton & Families
    Deepest sympathy for your loss
    Losing a brother leaves such a trail of questions
    Thinking of You All
    Much Love To YOU Susie
    Cathy Scott & Family xx

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    • Dearest ♥Cathy ♥Scott & ♥Family,
      Thank you for reaching out with your ♥LOVE.
      Yes – “Losing a brother leaves such a trail of questions”…… and I keep coming back to my words above:
      “…I wish I had answers,
      could help us to understand.
      Yet all I keep coming to is to love
      more deeply, more sweetly, more truly
      not wasting a moment finding
      more ways to offer your heart,
      more ways to open your soul…..”
      ♥Malcolm’s dying has opened all our hearts more and has left a gift with our family of bringing us together through his dying time….we’ve been reminded that we need to be more in each other’s lives and more attentive. A very precious ♥Gift. I am ♥Grateful.
      LOVE Susie♥


  2. Gaelia says:

    Dearest Susie,
    Thought & prayers are with you at this time of deep loss. I can only imagine how it would feel to lose a sibling. Your post has touched me with it’s raw honesty & depth of feeling. You are a truly beautiful human being. The world is a better place with you in it. Many many thanks for the care & compassion you show for all those around you. I feel so blessed to know you & have you as a part of my life.
    Love from Gaelia.

    Liked by 1 person

    • Dear Gaelia♥
      Thank you for your ♥LOVING – I feel comforted by knowing people are thinking about and are praying for me at this time of pain and loss…..♥
      We are so blessed to have siblings and all our family and I do encourage you to
      ” imagine how it would feel to lose a sibling….”
      Ask yourself what is incomplete for me with my brother or sister…..and remind you that you still have today to show your ♥LOVE….
      ….some words from another poem I wrote in 2000 called Giving is Receiving:
      “…..So many voices inside me
      scream out loud
      to others to hear of my sorrow
      to remind them to not lose a moment
      when you can tell your ♥Beloved
      of your love
      reminding you to find new ways daily
      of showing your love
      Finding how many ways to say I love you.
      Don’t wait for tomorrow
      don’t wait for the next moment
      Reach out now.
      reach out and receive”

      “…raw honesty & depth of feeling” is my commitment to myself and those around me so I am blessed that you feel touched by my being that way….
      My primary ♥LOVE Language is Words of Affirmation so I am so touched and honoured by your sweet valuing of me….a soothing balm that goes deep into my heart…
      Isn’t it wonderful how we do feel so much more like a “truly beautiful human being” and more deeply believe “the world is a better place with you in it” when it is affirmed by others….. part of being a human being I think 🙂
      I too “feel so blessed to know you & have you as a part of my life”
      With LOVE and gratitude, Susie♥


  3. To my dearly beloved sister Susie

    Thank-you for honouring our brother so eloquently.

    Today is the anniversary of our older brother Jeffrey’s death. He died only 1 year ago. So now there are only 3 sister’s left of our original family.

    It is a time of contemplation. A time to see if my own life is on track. I seem to get so absorbed in working and doing and not having time to “smell the roses”. I am trying to wake up and not be so anaesthetized. I have been sitting looking at old photos and listening to music that reminds me of Malcolm. I am wondering about what I need to change now so that when it is my turn to leave this world I will have no regrets. How do I want people to think and feel about me when I am gone? Can I be a better mother, partner, sister, daughter in law, cousin, aunty, friend or work mate?

    I asked Malcolm if he found the meaning of life. He told me it was to love and be loved of which he found both. It is just such a shame he wasn’t able to enjoy it longer.

    I truly value him in my life as he was always there when I needed him. He carried me when I broke my leg. He would dinky me on his bike up a big hill to take me to a friends house to play. He gave me away and was my MC at my wedding when my father and older brother were not there. He was God Father to my first son at his naming ceromony. He has been there for me endless times.

    I always thought of him as solid as a rock. Someone very dependable and reliable. He wasn’t outwardly emotional but I knew he loved me. I am very proud to say he was my brother. I am just so sad he will no longer be here physically.

    I am also proud to say you and Wendy are my sisters.

    Love you always

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  4. Hilary says:

    Sharing your sadness Susie, beautiful photos of Malcolm
    ‘No amount of teaching and messages wake us up like personal experience’, and also ‘Perhaps in embracing full living and loving we’ll give new meaning to all of our ♥Beloveds who’ve died’, I thought amongst many stood out for me, I think because, at what point do we stop needing the wake up calls? At what point are we content to just be what we are? Thank you for sharing your thoughts, peace and love to you and the family

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    • Dearest Hilary♥
      Grateful for your sharing the impact of my post….and ‘being there in the sadness’
      Pretty potent questions you put out:
      At what point do we stop needing the wake up calls?
      At what point are we content to just be what we are?
      For me I’ll always need wake-up calls. There will always be places that I go unconscious. There’s a lovely line in the “Imagine a Woman” poem by Patricia Lynn Reilly – http://www.imagineawoman.com/home/iaw-peom-i
      “…..Imagine a woman who values the women in her life.
      ….Who is reminded of the truth about herself when she forgets……”
      I value both women and men reminding me, and in fact as I said, I need it!
      For me it doesn’t take away from being “content to just be what we are”….
      Great ♥MIRRORING topic.
      Thanks muchly ♥LOVE and hugs, Susie♥


  5. Dear Susie, my deepest sympathies to you and your family on the loss of your dear brother. And thank you for writing such a beautiful post from the depth of your soul, so we could understand more deeply the loss of someone so dear as well as the meaning of life in that process.
    Wishing you all peace, comfort and much love. Hugs. xo

    Liked by 1 person

    • Dear Suzanne♥
      Many thanks for your caring and comforting words…
      How bittersweet is the loss of someone so dear…I appreciate you tuning in at the soul level…..
      You know probably our most important daily action is over and over telling our ♥LOVED ones how much we care & appreciate them…… Who knows what tomorrow will bring♥…..
      Peace and LOVE back to you, Susie♥


  6. Death, a time of upheaval…questions as old as the human race…. My love to you and your family as you adjust and redefine your life as-it-is-now, without Malcolm. Be gentle with yourself and one another as you each grieve in the way that’s right for you. xoxoxo

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    • dear Susan♥
      …..always showing up with an open and ♥LOVE-ing heart…..and wisdom so generously shared…
      adjusting…..redefining life…….being without my brother in my life…………. being gentle with myself……grieving in my way….Yes to all of these….Thank You, LOVE Susie♥


  7. sending love and prayer to wrap you tender
    and cover you and those beautiful questions
    with comfort and peace.
    with you,

    Liked by 1 person

    • Dear ♥Jennifer,
      Your words and ♥LOVE and presence cover and wrap me and my questioning with tenderness, comfort and peace….
      I feel you with me….that is the answer to a big question. Thank you, LOVE Susie♥


  8. Patti says:

    Sending you loving kindness. It sounds like you love him very much. I am sorry for your loss.

    Liked by 1 person

    • Dear Patti♥
      A warm Welcome to my blog and for your sharing…..
      I am grateful for your ♥LOVING kindness…..
      It does make it easier receiving ♥LOVE and kindness from people who care about and are sorry for our loss…..
      With gratitude and LOVE, Susie♥


  9. Emma says:

    Dear Susie, I’m so very very sorry for your loss. Please know that you and your family are held in my thoughts, prayers and heart. ♥ Emma

    Liked by 1 person

  10. Dear Emma♥
    I feel and appreciate you holding us in your thoughts, prayers and ♥LOVING heart. As I said to Patti it does make it easier knowing people care about and are sorry for our loss…..part of being human I think….
    Gratefully, LOVE Susie♥


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