♥LOVE TIP – Wednesday October 9, 2013.
It is taking a lot of guts to write this post –because it is saying STUFF that doesn’t feel …..well NICE. And CONSCIOUS. And EVOLVED.
I am ‘supposed to be’ someone who is accepting and positive and kind and supportive and caring and ♡LOVE-ing and understanding and EVOLVED and _______________insert a Thesaurus-full of those types of words…
Yet I don’t care what you think! Well part of me doesn’t!……. S-Q-U-I-R-M…..
I‘VE HAD ENOUGH. ENOUGH of all those posts/quotes/beliefs/ about what you put out you get back / the law of attraction stuff /create your own reality stuff / you can heal your life / the answers are within / your higher guidance will guide you / positive affirmations / you reap what you sow / the universe responds to energy-emotion / all that we are is the result of what we have thought / it’s only a thought and a thought can be changed /blah / blah / blah and more BLAH
All that sort of STUFF!!
How many bloody times do I have to think /say the positive stuff before it ACTUALLY manifests? Before it STICKS LIKE VELCRO. So that it doesn’t come unstuck…. so that is my primary way of thinking and language? So my life is HAPPY and POSITIVE. It feels like I’ve been learning a foreign language FOR YEARS and YEARS and YEARS and MORE YEARS but NEVER becoming fluent in it…..not being able to change the DEFAULT SETTINGS.
AND I DO ALL, well A-LOT-OF, THE RIGHT STUFF – like listen to Louise Hay 101 POWER THOUGHTS in my car every time I get in it – God I’m sick of how stupid some of those are!!!…… And the Happiness STUFF and the Positivity STUFF and the Inner Child STUFF and the conscious Relationship ♡LOVE-ing STUFF and the_______ STUFF, and the__________STUFF……….
And I EFT tap, top of the head, tap eyebrow point, tap side of the eye, tap tap tap tap tap tap tappity tap and then do it again tomorrow and then the next day again and again and again – REPETITION changes the brain…..they say….THE BRAIN CAN – NO DOES – CHANGE….they say…..AND I’m still on the same ole issues…..that are still sneaking and lurking about!!…..
And I read and study a truckload of POSITIVE authors /articles / books /posts /web-sites EVERY DAY. YES EVERY frigging DAY!!! As much as any nun in a convent would the Bible…..
And I scour Facebook and other sites looking for positive affirming quotes /sayings /posts a number of times each day as well as reading those posted by what seems like a trillion others, posting POSITIVE THOUGHTS/SAYINGS.
And I visit people’s pages and sites and blogs and take an interest in what is important to them and make positive comments or connect with them about what they are saying…
And I spend thousands and thousands and thousands of dollars on this and that motivational / educational / inspirational / Workshops / Retreats / Courses / E-courses / Trainings AND I CAN DO IT conferences!! – And do you know what – I am still doing it! – And I still haven’t learnt how to do LIFE yet!!!!! Haven’t found the Answers. The Way.
It isn’t working! I CAN’T DO IT!
AND I hear and see you self-made ones who Have GOT THERE – You know the New-Age-Success-Stories – you’ve fallen to the depths of despair and then you get hit/blinded by the light and bit-by-bit you climb yourselves up out of your misery and hopelessness and doldrums and out of your financial, marital, health or emotional or whatever bankruptcies because you have now seen THE LIGHT. THE WAY. You now KNOW THE WAY. And then you turn that into teaching THE WAY to the Un-Knowing.
And all you had to do was fail and descend to the depths of despair and heal yourself and you’ve got what it takes to make a 6 figure income and THE REST.
While we others, or at least just ME, are out there STILL saying affirmations, tapping, visualizing, slogging away at ALL-OF-IT….
You are commiserating. Yet mainly you are thinking IT DOES WORK. All I’ve got to do is flick the switch. No holding back. You’re thinking that I must NOT be choosing. Thinking I’m saying I-CAN’T when it is really an I-WON’T!
Do You Know what? – I AM WILLING. Please Universe / God / Great Spirit / Higher Guidance / Goddess / Buddha / Allah / Dalai Lama / Yoda / please make my Life-Default-Setting HAPPY 🙂
But then again I don’t do Yoga. I don’t do Meditation. I don’t do Acupuncture. Maybe that’s what I’ve got wrong. Maybe that’s the ANSWER. OR……
This post is part of a BRAVE BLOGGING link-up that’s part of ♡Liv Lane’s How To Build a Blog You Truly Love E-course…Yes another E-course to make me better-than-I-am. The assignment-invitation-challenge was to step outside my comfort zone and share something with you that feels BRAVE. I am done.